In the meantime, working nights I find myself eating some really unhealthy foods just to keep me awake and my exercise is walking the halls of the hospital. I realize that I have two options, 1.) To sit and mope and feel sorry for myself, or 2.) To get up off of my a$$ and get this weight off and find my happy place. I took the first step Monday morning and that is stepping on the scale and facing the number that I had been avoiding all of this time. I stepped on the scale and tears started flowing. I couldn't believe that I had let myself go so much. The highest number I have ever seen on the scale flashed before me, 288 pounds.
I decided to start back up with My Fitness Pal and purchased a Polar FT4 Heart Rate Monitor. If you are on MFP I would love to be friends. Here's my page http://www.myfitnesspal.com/projectkristy
I'm counting calories and watching the carbs for a little while to cut back on the cravings. We're going to be going on a family vacation to Disney World in July and I really want to feel comfortable in my own skin before we go. That is just one thing that will be keeping me motivated to succeed.
I want to say Thank You to all of my loyal followers! I'm looking forward to catching up with some fellow weight loss bloggers.